The words mean so much more.
Being apart brings a dynamic to a relationship that is not easy to survive.
Love will demonstrate that it can become something beyond our wildest imagination.
I always miss you. I always think about you. I always cheer your bravery.
When I speak my heart, the bigger meaning shows itself; I see it in your eyes.
I love you, I am yours.
Friday, April 09, 2010
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Distance
It is said that distance makes the heart grow fonder, that the shortest distance between two points is a direct line and that to be successful you must go the distance. While all of these words of wisdom may be true, it still does not solve the true issue behind them - how does one survive while traversing said distance?
Monday, November 09, 2009
The ugly truth
Most people that know me, know that I will not say or do something untrue to myself. Why is it then that when I do this, you get mad? Are you upset because I told you something you did not want to hear or are you mad because you are disappointed in me? Either way, get over it. Neither reason has any grounding on our relationship. I am not going to sugar coat things or tell you stuff I think you want to hear.
If we are friends you should know by now that I will not lie to you to validate your actions and I will even explain why - which usually does not happen because you will not listen by that point. If we are family you should know I am going to tell you what I think and then push you to the point that I get a valid response as to why you feel opposite. If we are associated and I believe you are wrong you should know I am going to not do what you ask of me. If this is what happens - GET THE HELL OVER IT.
I am tired of dealing with hurt feelings because I was honest. I am tired of dealing with misunderstood conversations because I was honest. I am tired of being tired of being tired......
Sometimes the truth is ugly. Being mature and facing that fact is part of life - I face it everyday and do not take it out on the messenger. Get over it and learn from it. Life is about overcoming the ugly truth.
If we are friends you should know by now that I will not lie to you to validate your actions and I will even explain why - which usually does not happen because you will not listen by that point. If we are family you should know I am going to tell you what I think and then push you to the point that I get a valid response as to why you feel opposite. If we are associated and I believe you are wrong you should know I am going to not do what you ask of me. If this is what happens - GET THE HELL OVER IT.
I am tired of dealing with hurt feelings because I was honest. I am tired of dealing with misunderstood conversations because I was honest. I am tired of being tired of being tired......
Sometimes the truth is ugly. Being mature and facing that fact is part of life - I face it everyday and do not take it out on the messenger. Get over it and learn from it. Life is about overcoming the ugly truth.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Hottie at the gym
Most of you know my addiction to the gym. One of the best things about it is the inspiration that walks through there. Nothing about anyone I see is ever thought of as being imposing or creepy, but when I'm working out, beautiful bodies help me to push myself.
This day was nothing different. Hottie walked in, went to do something else and I pumped out a few extra reps on leg press. As I was walking over to the opposite side of the gym I pass hottie. As I turn my head to see more I notice the back of hottie's shirt: MY ASS. I almost died laughing. Take it for what you will, but those two words say so many different things.
This day was nothing different. Hottie walked in, went to do something else and I pumped out a few extra reps on leg press. As I was walking over to the opposite side of the gym I pass hottie. As I turn my head to see more I notice the back of hottie's shirt: MY ASS. I almost died laughing. Take it for what you will, but those two words say so many different things.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Goodbye, my friend.
Wicke Chandler will always be remembered:
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Reported by: Jimena Martinez
We now know the identities of both men who died after their motorcycles collided on a central coast road.
The collision happened just after 1:30 p.m. Wednesday near Noyes Road and State Route 227.
The California Highway Patrol says a 26-year-old Wicke Chandler of San Luis Obispo was driving his motorcycle northbound on SR 227 when he collided with another motorcycle that was driven by 53-year-old Thomas Caruso of Nipomo.
At this point investigators don't know what caused the accident.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Reported by: Emily Kiefer
Two people are dead after two motorcycles collide on a central coast road.
The collision happened just after 1:30 p.m. Wednesday near Noyes Road and State Route 227.
The California Highway Patrol says a 26-year-old San Luis Obispo man was driving his motorcycle northbound on SR 227 when he collided with another motorcycle that was driven by a 53-year-old Nipomo man.
At this point investigators don't know what caused the accident.
Traffic was down to one lane as crews worked the scene.
Monday, August 31, 2009
A cup of coffee
Generally, I walk by anyone asking for something of me on the street. It's a very private and un-confrontational way to live life. No one talks to me, I don't have to acknowledge their existence. Today was different.
I had a bit of time to kill before meeting a contractor and I was craving coffee. Walking up the street to the Starbucks, I passed a man seated on the stoop of the backdoor to the building in which the venue is located. He politely asked me for a cup of coffee and my rote reply came out, "Not today".
As I stood in line, waiting my turn, I thought about what a habit it is to just say no to those people that attempt to acquire something from me on the street. I also realize that, if I were in his position, I would appreciate someone spending $1.50 for a cup of coffee for me.
Who knows if he really wanted coffee; I never will. Selfishly, I enjoyed the feeling it brought to my day. I do not know if that feeling should even be there. I did not gloat about what I did, except, maybe you, my reader, feels that I am gloating now. I did enjoy the warmth and good feeling it brought to me the rest of the day, knowing I helped someone. Is that bad? I would argue, no. Who really knows? Maybe it is. Maybe the warmth I felt was from the coffee, or maybe I just did a good thing and karma is smiling on me. Either way, I plan to pass it on.
I had a bit of time to kill before meeting a contractor and I was craving coffee. Walking up the street to the Starbucks, I passed a man seated on the stoop of the backdoor to the building in which the venue is located. He politely asked me for a cup of coffee and my rote reply came out, "Not today".
As I stood in line, waiting my turn, I thought about what a habit it is to just say no to those people that attempt to acquire something from me on the street. I also realize that, if I were in his position, I would appreciate someone spending $1.50 for a cup of coffee for me.
Who knows if he really wanted coffee; I never will. Selfishly, I enjoyed the feeling it brought to my day. I do not know if that feeling should even be there. I did not gloat about what I did, except, maybe you, my reader, feels that I am gloating now. I did enjoy the warmth and good feeling it brought to me the rest of the day, knowing I helped someone. Is that bad? I would argue, no. Who really knows? Maybe it is. Maybe the warmth I felt was from the coffee, or maybe I just did a good thing and karma is smiling on me. Either way, I plan to pass it on.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The Unfamiliar Path
When you develop a habit or method to life, bifurcating that path becomes the worst event. Learning how to deal with those times can become a great attribute. I strive every day to be more amenable to such events, and every day more are thrown at me. I will prevail. I will learn. I will grow. I will always struggle - while smiling. I accept the challenge.
Monday, August 17, 2009
A smile
My street has been under construction for at least the past year. Sidewalks, water pipes, curb restructuring and it probably will not end until the city gives it a new hair-do. With all the holes and bumps that are being repaired they have added to the confusion by placing odd walkways that wind through the mess bordered by fencing with the green tarps. I assume this is to keep the secret of how beautiful it will eventually become.
As I was maneuvering my way through the onslaught of make-shift ramps and sandbags (apparently used to weigh down the fences, but the sand is never in them and the fences are often toppled, so I am not sure as to their success) I spy a man in a wheelchair coming toward me. Instinctively, I look for a spot to stand aside so he can pass with ease. I smile to him as he approaches and sees me plastered to the tarp-wrapped fence. He smiles back and says, "You keep moving, son, they have created quite an obstacle course here. If I can't make it past you, I'll probably fall in a hole or get my wheel caught on a fence post. Whatever happens, it's an adventure and I'm having fun."
As I slide past him, he begins to whistle a tune of which I am not familiar. A big smile comes over my face about two feet past and I realize, he just made my day. In a life full of obstructions, a man that has faced many more than me, showed me that the best way to get through them is to enjoy it. I will never know his name, but the smile he gave me will be in my memory forever.
As I was maneuvering my way through the onslaught of make-shift ramps and sandbags (apparently used to weigh down the fences, but the sand is never in them and the fences are often toppled, so I am not sure as to their success) I spy a man in a wheelchair coming toward me. Instinctively, I look for a spot to stand aside so he can pass with ease. I smile to him as he approaches and sees me plastered to the tarp-wrapped fence. He smiles back and says, "You keep moving, son, they have created quite an obstacle course here. If I can't make it past you, I'll probably fall in a hole or get my wheel caught on a fence post. Whatever happens, it's an adventure and I'm having fun."
As I slide past him, he begins to whistle a tune of which I am not familiar. A big smile comes over my face about two feet past and I realize, he just made my day. In a life full of obstructions, a man that has faced many more than me, showed me that the best way to get through them is to enjoy it. I will never know his name, but the smile he gave me will be in my memory forever.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Changes
When you decide to make changes in your life, things do not always go as planned. It seems that at some point I need to learn I have no control over certain things such as my feelings. I am going to feel how I feel and I need to deal with that. When I fight it, is when the problems begin. Maybe this time, letting myself go will be good, but being guarded could prove to be beneficial as well. It will never cease to amaze me how deciding on changing an aspect of yourself can so easily be overruled by a feeling. Therefore, I decide to let my feelings run free. I hope it allows for a stronger bond, if not, at least I am being myself.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Past
It's odd, the past is coming back. Not to haunt, but to recirculate. People pop through and occurrences repeat but time keeps moving forward. It is a very odd phenomena to watch your life take turns and paths that resemble past choices made. It can be sad if they are detrimental and poor choices that keep being repeated. It can be exciting if the occurrences were good. It can be cloaked if you do not realize what is happening.
Take a look at people in your life. Look at how they have been involved and the times they have not. Relationships ebb and flow as does the good and bad. No one will I ever write off, almost to a point some may consider apathy, but I do not believe in creating feelings. If you sit back and watch your life, you will see that you truly have no control over certain things. So sit back, relax, and enjoy the company of those around you. They may be part of you now, but it may be awhile before you cross paths again, but they will return.
Your past may be your past, but it circulates, reorganizes, reinvents and reincarnates itself into your present and your future.
Take a look at people in your life. Look at how they have been involved and the times they have not. Relationships ebb and flow as does the good and bad. No one will I ever write off, almost to a point some may consider apathy, but I do not believe in creating feelings. If you sit back and watch your life, you will see that you truly have no control over certain things. So sit back, relax, and enjoy the company of those around you. They may be part of you now, but it may be awhile before you cross paths again, but they will return.
Your past may be your past, but it circulates, reorganizes, reinvents and reincarnates itself into your present and your future.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Yes, We Can
It has come the time that America has spoken and it is time that this country turns itself around. Congratulations to President-elect Obama, but I would also like to congratulate someone even closer to me - my mother. Congratulations to her for standing up for what she believes in: equality, her cause and me. Thank you for fighting the fight, mom. You are the best.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Happiness
After a long time I have come to find happiness again.
Waking up next to him makes me more happy than I've ever been.
Joy comes forth as I roll over and see him next to me.
Waking up next to him makes me more happy than I've ever been.
Joy comes forth as I roll over and see him next to me.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Friday, April 11, 2008
Proximity
It is always better to say, "I wish you were here." than to say, "I wish he wasn't here." To love at a distance is better than to not love at all. It makes for a better relationship than to believe that you would be happier if they were not with you.
Florida
As I leave Florida I realize that I need to find someone to settle down and begin my life. I love coming home to my kittens and my house, but to be back in someone's arms is the best feeling in the world. Someone I can confide in, create a life with, and miss while I am gone. It has come. I am ready. Any suggestions?
Monday, April 07, 2008
Women, wise?
At one point in my life, a palmist looked at me and, with sadness in her face, said, "You have to find a way to let it go". I stared back at her blankly and she continued, "There is a force that weighs you down beyond your control. Someone or something in your life causes you more stress and anxiety than you are able to mentally deal. Find a method to release this stress or some day it could destroy you."
With a little more help from her and a few more insights on my part, I have identified what I believe to be the issue. It is at least something I need to deal with, if not exactly of what she is speaking. I almost broke down recently, but I shall prevail. Deep breaths......
I shall prevail.
With a little more help from her and a few more insights on my part, I have identified what I believe to be the issue. It is at least something I need to deal with, if not exactly of what she is speaking. I almost broke down recently, but I shall prevail. Deep breaths......
I shall prevail.
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